2012, year of forgiveness and acceptance
Posted on September 24, 2012 by Comingout coil
Today I feel that finally I came out from the 2011 closet. Today I forgive.
This Yom Kippur is very special for me. My mum arrives from Paris to Tel Aviv today and I am going to take her from the airport with Aya, my wife, and we are going to spend Yom Kippur together after 6 years I haven’t spend Rosh Hashanah or Kippur with my parents (I know some of you wished they could escape from this intense family time period every year ).
2011 has been a very chaotic year for me. I have been angry and sad screaming for love and acceptance and I didn’t get what I wanted: my parents didn’t come to my wedding.
I discovered what it was to be really depressed, to touch this very low and dark zone.
In 2011 I didn’t forgive.
2012 has been a very challenging year too in a very different way. A lot of changes for me: I turned 30, new home, new job, new vision of love and relationship. I feel I am starting to get answers.
I started to accept that not everything is like I want it to be and I am not exactly who I would like to be and people would like me to be and it’s ok. I even learn how to love it, my imperfect world.
In that period of the year we are suppose to ask for forgiveness.
This year I decided to not ask people to forgive me but to do something harder for me and to take the responsibility on me: I chose to forgive.
For those who saw our movie “Please Love”, you know I thought I knew what love is… I couldn’t explain it (For those who haven’t seen it yet, you’ll get it: http://www.pleaselove.co.il )
Today I think love is to forgive I forgive my dad who still refuses to meet my wife, I forgive my mum who hasn’t been always there for me but made a lot of efforts this year, I forgive my brother that lives in his own world and hope he is happy there, I forgive myself, I forgive the universe.
I love imperfection.
Today I am happy, I feel free and complete.
I prepared with love my mum’s room in our home.
I wish you for this year the power to forgive yourself &co.