it was verry hard for me when i was younger to tell anyone that i was diffrent and i was gay and trans and i wanted to be a boy
and im hiv negitive and im out to my family and not so mutch to my friends so they still dont know about me yet i havent told them
but the only way i could tell anyone was to put a story about my self in the statenisland papers and so im prettymutch free to be my self and express my self freely and not be ashamed of who i am and so that just about sums it up about me.
Currently, I’m going through hell, I’m really suffering and now have totally lost everything, yes I have nothing at all….. the little that I had, that also I have lost.
Ever since I decided to come out completely and have come out my life has further more become a hell. Even after preparing myself for the worst, I find it extremely difficult to live with all this discrimination, disrespect as I told you that we transpeople live at the fringe of society, we are not accepted at all by the straight people, if I may say so even many gay & lesbian ill treat us (me) and don’t understand what we go through.
I’ve been knocking door of so many LGBT communities for help, for a safe place to live and work but no one comes to help a transperson. It’s very easy for a gay or lesbian to get jobs but for a transgender it’s extremely difficult and this no one understand including the LGBT people.
Now my son and his father have abandon me because my life, who I am was affecting their lives. All I’m doing is running, running to find a save place to live and work. I have no house and no job, I’m all alone with no help from anyone. Not that I don’t have work experience or knowledge, I have it all but then comes in play the gender problem. I just don’t know what to do, the only road I see is to death….. I’m miserable, in so much of depression, I’m frustrated being born in a wrong body and I’m scared.
I would be so grateful to you if you can help me.
Words just can’t describe what I’m going through, I have started to believe that there is no one for transpeople, at least for me. Yes you can publish this without my name.
All I need is a safe place to live and work. I’m a workaholic but since 2009 when I just started coming out I lost my job and since then it’s been a hell of a journey.
My experience is in the field of sports/events/marketing. I have written to Aguda – The Israel LGBT but they were not helpful, I have written so many people for help but no one seems to understand a transperson situation. I wrote to LGBT Israel as well they seem to understand and would help. Thanks a tonShare on Facebook